This post is of a different flavor than my regular posts. And, I will admit, it is in response to the FIRE that roared up within me. Writing is how I support myself in processing my thoughts and feelings, so here we go.
I belong to a Telegram group of members who share alternative information on topics that would very likely be censored elsewhere. The above 3 1/2-minute video was shared in the group today. (I invite everyone to watch it before it gets censored by YT.)
I posted a response to this video, which I will share momentarily, which became the catalyst for a communication stream that was extremely triggering for me ~ and apparently for the other person as well. I cannot speak to what was being triggered in the other person. I can only speak to what was coming up within me.
I am desiring to be VERY CLEAR as to the intention behind sharing this experience. First, it is to demonstrate in a very personal way how the Underworld Journey catalyzes us. Second, it is to discuss the opportunities that the catalyzing process, more commonly known as “triggering,” is offering us to step into. Finally, it is to demonstrate HOW the Cosmos presents situations in which we can choose to walk our talk and stand in our power or roll over and give our power away. This is not about anyone being right or wrong, good or bad. It is an attempt to share what I was feeling through the exchange and how I chose to respond to those feelings.
Here is a quote from the above video that I was responding to:
The scheduled weather forecasting scripts are then passed all the way down to the local meteorologist level. The official narrative must be controlled. All must follow the same script.
Dane Wigington, GeoEngineeringWatch.org
And here is my response to the video content, and specifically, the quote above, although I admit that I did not reference the quote. However, what I shared was a “reply” to the posted video, and not just a random post:
Honestly, I’ve been through MUCH MUCH worse. They have totally overhyped this thing. I’m fine. No power loss. Stayed up until 4am. No Ian. Around 7am, Ian had arrived & woke me up. It passed very quickly. By noon, things had really calmed down. Still got some intermittent bands of rain & some occasional gusts of wind. Really nothing serious. Even very little debris down around me.
My thoughts are … is there a lot of Fake News going on with intentional misrepresentation of photos & video OR am I having a totally different experiential reality because I’m at a different frequency???? I suppose it could be some of both.
Sofia Mona Lisa, September 30, 2022
What I wrote in the Telegram group is an accurate reflection of what I experienced and what my thoughts were about my experience. It was not an attempt to minimalize or discount any other person’s experience with Hurricane Ian. In my opinion, everyone has the right to express their personal experiences and their thoughts about their own experiences without being challenged or chastised. For those of you who have a lot of experience with narcissists as I do, and I am not saying the other person is a narcissist, the challenging and chastisement of your experiences and thoughts is a classic example of how narcissists wield their personal power to try to control another person. Clearly, as this has come up for me, there are still residual frequencies within me related to my experiences of power-struggles with narcissists that are being alchemized within me at this time.
So, here is the response my reply received and its subsequent exchange. I will embed my thoughts and feelings within the exchange:
MZ: It’s not overhyped. You and many others were spared. Some were not so lucky and took the brunt of a Cat 4 direct hit. We still can’t get a hold of Helen down in Venice. Praying she is ok. Not like her to [not] check in.
Now, I realize other people may not have perceived this response the same way I did. That’s the KEY to understanding the catalyzing process. Everyone “hears” and “receives” the message in the way that is necessary for them to begin the triggering (alchemizing) process. I heard and received (felt) his response as being overtly hostile towards me. Still, I chose instead to allow myself to focus on the information about Helen. Helen is one of our regular Galactic New Earth Project participants, so I was immediately very concerned about her. I chose to ignore what I perceived to be his hostile remarks, and just addressed the situation with Helen. Nevertheless, the perceived hostility had already activated the residual power-struggle frequencies within and was going to work on me. Be aware ~ this is often a very unconscious process and can frequently only be recognized in hindsight.
S: Thanks for letting me know. I’ll keep checking on Helen too.
MZ: *correction on my earlier comment. All storms (and wars) are overhyped. Yet there is still destruction and casualties of war. Ian was no different.
Ok … now the fuse got lit inside of me! Instead of letting my previous response about my concern for Helen’s safety be the end of it, this person came back with the remark above. While it was not a direct reply to my response, rather a separate post, I did feel like and perceive that it was a direct attack at me to “prove his point” and “discount my experience.” So, I replied directly to his remark, and chose to make an effort to diffuse a situation which I felt was escalating and in which I perceived he was “coming after me”:
S: I’m not suggesting there was “no” destruction. I do know people who have no power & a lot of trees down, etc. I’m just sharing that my experience was nothing like what I had been told to expect. I’m born & raised in FL. I’ve been through a lot of this sort of thing. Meanwhile, also reflecting on the fact that I did spend several days directing the frequency of Love at it & contemplating on whether that altered my experience. Thanks for letting me know about Helen. I tried reaching her on both numbers. If you do hear from her, please share here in the group.
MZ: If you were born here and have been through this then you would know to prepare for the worst and hope for the best as they have no clue where the storm is going to go. Many were spared. Some were not. Same as every storm.
I will absolutely let the group know if we hear from Helen. My sister and I might take a drive to Venice later to see what we can find out.
To me, this direct reply from him was like the matador waving the red flag at the bull. From my perception, this individual had refused to accept my “olive branch,” and rather than diffusing the situation, was continuing to come after me. At this point, I felt like “game on!” I did feel he was trying to belittle me with his “holier than thou” crap, and I was not going to stand for it. How many times had I previously been in a similar situation and had not been able to speak up for myself? I was not going to let it go. I didn’t care if I was perceived by the others in the group to be bitchy or not. I was going to allow my fierceness to have its voice:
S: Honestly, I can’t believe you are choosing to “scold & school” me. Grow up.
The most important part of this experience is how I felt after I stood up for myself by sending that reply. I felt queasy inside. I felt like I was going to get in trouble for saying my piece. I felt like the response by the other person would be such an overwhelming attack that I wouldn’t be able to hold up under it. I even sent a private text message to the group administrator telling her, “If you want to remove me, that’s fine …”. Still, I kept reassuring myself by reminding myself that I had chosen to stand in my power. I reassured myself by pointing out that I was “walking my talk” by not allowing another person to take my power away. I reassured myself by telling myself that I had modeled to the other members of the group how to stand up to a bully. And then he wrote this and left the group:
MZ: Weird. I can’t believe you’re thinking this was all over hyped when people are missing. Maybe you should grow up.
There you have it. A mature response. I can just hear little kids shouting back and forth at each other:
“Grow up!”
“No, you grow up!”
“No, you grow up!”
“I’m going to tell mom!”
Yes, a part of me did “grow up” through this experience. That part of me inside that was activated over having had my power taken away so many times in the past by being made to feel wrong and insignificant finally was able to stand up to the bully, the narcissist, the …. whatever label you want to call that role. Actually, from a higher perspective rather, I would say that this experience helped me to expand further into the Greatness of who I AM. This is what the alchemical process of the Shamanic Death and Rebirth is all about. We bring our shadow into the light ~ our separation consciousness into Unity Consciousness ~ we expand more fully into the Wholeness of who we are. We “grow up.” Plainly and simply.
I know it can be challenging for people to do their own shadow-dancing work. I hope MZ is able to do the work for himself and discover what parts of himself he was being invited to bring into Wholeness. As a Scorpio Goddess, this is one of the Gifts, or the Shamanic Medicine, that I came into this incarnation with, along with the fact that I am very self-reflective and contemplative (Ascendant in Cancer and North Node at 29° Cancer).
Again, let’s be clear. I do not feel angry at MZ. I am not harboring any animosity towards him. I am not labeling him or judging him. In fact, having been able to process all the intricacies of my own thoughts and feelings that came bubbling up through our exchange, I appreciate him and send him Love. We cannot see our own blind spots. We must have another individual act as a mirror for us, so that we can see them. I know on the Soul-level, MZ and I agreed to help each other in our own individual expansion processes in this seemingly “childish” way at this precise moment of the Eternal Now. However, it doesn’t FEEL childish when you are going through the fire. It feels VERY VULNERABLE. This is why everything in the cauldron must be cherished and honored. And most importantly, this is why we must always extend grace and compassion towards ourselves first.
I hope by sharing this I have helped someone have an A-HA around their own Underworld Journey’s alchemical process. This is the continuous Spiritual Work ~ or Sadhana ~ that we are called to as we continue the Ascencion Path.
By the way, the Sheriff did a well-call check on Helen, and she is fine. She just has no power or cell service. Thank Goddess!! Thank you to everyone who took the extra steps to ensure that she is okay. Much, much love and appreciation to you.
Many blessings to you,
Sofia Mona Lisa
Alchemical Creation High Priestess
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