Yesterday, the day our Nation celebrated its Independence ~ its Sovereignty, was an interesting day of feeling pulled apart for me. It was a day of being aware that I was feeling provoked by the behaviors of an individual that was participating in the celebration I was attending. That person’s behaviors were extremely irritating for me. The vibration of aggravation that was being activated within me continued to have its momentum escalated throughout the day. As the momentum of the vibration escalated, I became more and more energetically drained causing me to feel more and more tired and fatigued.
Then, just before we were going to walk down to the beach to enjoy the fireworks, someone (unexpected by me) showed up to join us. The shock of seeing this individual whom I had not seen in about 9 years (which had ended very abruptly and badly ~ almost involving the police!) simply “popped” my overly stretched “balloon.” The intensity of exhaustion that came over me with this individual’s arrival was so suffocating for me that I became desperate to free myself from the laser-focus of the activated vibration that was determined to be acknowledged by me.
In that moment, I was unable to acknowledge anything except for my own urgent requirement for RELIEF. I chose to leave the celebration and to miss the fireworks. There were too many going off inside of me! (LOL) That was the most, and the best, that I could do for myself.
When I arrived home (an hour and a half later!), I collapsed onto my bed and slept for more than 12 hours. When I woke up this morning, the momentum of yesterday’s activated vibration once more took command of my attention, picking up right where I had left it the night before. Feeling stronger than the day before after the 12+ hours of sleep, I was resolute about engaging with this activated vibration from a more conscious and empowered position.
The first thing that showed up in my Awareness for me to realize was that the events of the day before were able to “take me down” because I had unwittingly shown up at the celebration with that vibration already being activated. I just did not KNOW that the vibration had been previously activated nor that it remained activated. I looked back over the days preceding the 4th of July to identify the activation point, and it was quickly revealed to me. I saw myself being “triggered” by that activating incident.
I recalled having made numerous conscious efforts to distract myself from the activating incident and the feelings it brought up within me between the time of the activation point and my arrival at the celebration yesterday. Each time thoughts about it came into my mind, I chose to focus on something else, so that I could feel better. Little did I know then that, over the course of my life, this particular vibration’s momentum had become a runaway train that kept running me over!
Once I had discovered the activating incident, I was able to quickly and easily let go of the aggravating events from my 4th of July celebration. This was because I KNEW that the only reason those two individuals had been able to show up in my Reality the way that they had was because they TOO had this very same vibration activated within them. That’s when I KNEW that all I had to do was to identify my FEELINGS around the activating incident, so that I could know which vibration was active in all of us.
When I tried contemplating it in an effort to figure it out, I only activated the vibration even more. I realized I would have to allow myself the time and space for a Meditation, so that I could raise my vibration in order to identify it. Problems and solutions are TWO DIFFERENT frequencies. We cannot identify a solution when we are vibrating at the frequency of the problem. I settled in for a 15 minute Meditation. As I allowed myself to relax, the clarity around the vibration that was seeking my Awareness began to easily appear. My feelings around the activating incident identified themselves to me. They were feelings of being insignificant and being invaluable.
I was VERY SURPRISED by the revelation of these feelings! I have done a tremendous amount of work on cleaning up my vibrations and raising my frequency to be in alignment with my Inner BEing. I have spent a lot of time focused on feeling and knowing myself to be valuable and significant. As I was thinking these very thoughts, it was revealed to me that the feelings of being insignificant and invaluable were coming from my Inner Masculine! That was a HUGE A-HA moment for me!! I realized, “YES!!! This makes sense to me!”
It made sense to me because, in that moment of clarity, I was reminded that the North Node is transiting the sign of Leo ~ which is ruled by the Sun. The Sun represents our relationship with the Divine Father. Meanwhile, Mars (our Inner Masculine) is on His retrograde journey in Aquarius (Liberation) bringing our attention inward towards Him. Both the Divine Father (Sun) and the Inner Masculine (Mars) are aspects of the Sacred Masculine. For me personally, transiting Venus was in an exact conjunction with my natal Mars (also in retrograde)! Their Sacred Union energies were the laser-focus that I felt yesterday! Further, the Sun conjoined my natal Pallas Athena was amplifying Their focus!!! Perhaps you can now feel the extent of the intensity that I referred to earlier. LOL
As a Collective Consciousness, Humanity’s belief systems around Masculine Energy have been extremely perverted by Patriarchy. This perversion by Patriarchy became imprinted upon my Consciousness to such a degree that the Pure Expressions of of the Sacred Masculine were internalized within me as insignificant and invaluable. HOW has this perversion by Patriarchy been imprinted upon YOUR Consciousness??? For me, because the North Node in Leo and Venus’ conjunction with my natal Mars in Leo are both in my Second House, this was another piece of the A-HA moment that made sense to me. Venus is the Goddess of the Second House which represents what we value. Wherever She stands in the Sky, Venus is showing us how we Love and what we Value. So, to know how the perversion of the Masculine Energy by Patriarchy has been imprinted upon your Consciousness, you must know in which House(s) of your natal chart the North Node and Venus in Leo are located right now.
NOW is the time to BECOME AWARE of your personal belief systems around the Masculine Energy (Mars Retrograde), so that you can clean them up and bring this part of yourself, your Inner Masculine, into the fullness of your alignment with your Inner Being (Mars in Aquarius ~ Liberation of the Sacred Masculine). The COSMOS is supporting Humanity in this task! Our Cosmic Shaman, Chiron, is standing at 2°25′ Aries. He is beaming His Shamanic Medicine, infused with the Love of the Divine Mother (Luna), right at the North Node (Humanity’s Cosmic GPS for Its Evolutionary Path) and Mercury (our Cosmic Messenger). No wonder all of my clarity and insight showed up so quickly and clearly! This Shamanic Medicine is being received quickly and clearly by you too!
This conscious work is a HUGE piece of Reclaiming our Sovereignty. You MUST discover the feelings that come up within you around your Inner Masculine. They will show you where you are not in Alignment with your Inner BEing. The BEAUTIFUL thing about this Co-Creative Dance is that it really is so easy! Once you attain the Awareness Heightening, Source ~ through The Law of Attraction ~ takes care of it for you. You only need to stay focused on your Feelings of Appreciation:
- Appreciation for your Inner Masculine
- Appreciation for the Sacred Masculine
- Appreciation for your Expanded Consciousness
- Appreciation for your Sovereignty and Liberation
- Appreciation for Source’s LOVE and ADORATION of YOU!
When you stay focused on your Feelings of Appreciation, your liberating expansion can unfold with Ease and Grace and become your new Point of Attraction. Watch how your Reality ~ the world around you ~ will magically change!
If you would like some support in doing this kind of Conscious Expansion, I invite you to join me in The Golden Ray Center’s NEW Mystery School program ~ The Rose Wheel™ Mystery School. This is just some of the work that we will be doing together, and that you will learn how to do for yourself. The Registration Deadline is July 31st!
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